Time: 1:19am
Mood: Bored
Song of the moment: Beck - E-Pro (I finally caved and bought it on iTunes *sigh*)
It's Saturday early morning and I'm bored. I could easily sleep but I don't feel like it. I'm dumb that way I guess... I never want to sleep when I should be. Makes me feel like a little kid. I used to do that when I was a kid actually.. on weekends. I used to stay up all night just for the hell of it, sometimes in hopes to watch the sun rise. I remember I used to get hungry in the middle of the night, and I would creep downstairs to get bread and water. I was super quiet.. I knew where all the creeks on the floor were. It was always like a espionage operation for me, I felt like a spy sneaking downstairs unnoticed, into the kitchen to steal a piece of bread.
In being bored, I thought about what an old roomate of mines had once told me when I first met her. She said "If you're bored, it means you're a boring person." She went on to explain if you were an intersting person, you would always find an interesting way of dealing with bordem. Now, in being bored, I couldn't help think "Am I boring?" I would hate to think I was. But maybe I am. I admit I've slowed down with my social butterfly ways since I left Waterloo. I don't go out as much, and I prefer to stay in sometimes and just bum around. I know we all have those days but I have those more often than usual. I guess it doesn't seem too bad when you have someone to bum around with.
I'm beginning to find it harder to talk to people about my life. Everything seems so simple, and it takes about a good 3 minutes to explain what's been going on in my life. The big thing, the engagement of course, then there's school.. and.. fin. Or maybe there is a lot going on in my life, but I dont' feel compelled to tell people about it. Man, writing this, I'm boring myself.
Maybe it's because I'm comparing my life to the lives of my friends, some of them who are off in different countries, experiencing the a whole new world out there. I always go through these phases where I'm a bit bored with my life. Is that normal? Or does that just justify that I'm boring? I guess there is no room for excitment for me right now, too focused with school. I know a lot will go on after I finish school, in fact I think it'll be pretty crazy for me. I guess that's something to look forward to.
Friday night and I did absolutely nothing... except work on this bloody thesis... oh this bloody thesis!!
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4 comments:
Kare, you're not "boring" at all!! God, my life is much more boring than yours, so don't worry *pats Kare on the back* When you let a job control your life the way I did, you realize how predictable and boring a person you've become. Then when you realize that job may be coming to a close (since I've given in my resignation), you freak b/c you realize it's what's defined you for a good year, and now what???? You on the other hand are one to be admired. You're in gradschool, you're engaged, and you've had so many positive life experiences ^____^ Wanna trade places? ;p
Aww Mel your comment really cheered me up :) I can always count on u for that :) I guess you're right.. the repetitiveness and predictability does make life a little dull. Haha sure we can trade places! I'm in the middle of writing my thesis so your proposition comes w/ perfect timing! We both know you're the better writer between the two of us (always has.. and always will! haha)
Perhaps you feel boredeom when you compare with what others are doing. It might be more beneficial to focus on what you got going on, and take it in stride. As long as you enjoy where you are in your life, I can't imagine that being boring.
sweetiekare, you're definitely not boring... i like reading what's been happening in your life and all... it makes me realise that there's other people outside of "my world"... *hugs back*
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