The Art of Falling Asleep

Time: 3:41pm
Mood: Bummy
Song of the moment: Oasis - Wonderwall

This whole week I've been having trouble sleeping. I think it's partially because I've been reading The Da Vinci Code before I sleep, and it's a bit of a thinking book so my mind is on a bit of run after reading it. And that's the big problem because I can't seem to shut it off! I've been thinking about almost every aspect of my current life and it gets pretty crazy because I think about it all at the same time. So what acutally goes through that little head of mines?

"I need a job.. am I even going to job before I leave for my trip? Do I apply for jobs before or after my trip? What if I can't find a job for another year? The car.. what should I do about that? If I go for a Jetta, will I find a job in time to actually pay for it after the $9000 runs out? Should I get married next year or in 2007? Will I be able to pay for it? Am I going to finish my thesis on time? Oh shit I still have all this stuff to write for my thesis, I gotta start on in soon. How many sections do I still have to write? I really gotta get my ass into gear...."

Except the list is probably longer than this. It's like my brain is on speed or something, thoughts wizzing around at 100mph. Then I get frustrated because my brain doesn't seem to want to shut off, and that frustration just adds to the problem. When it gets like this, it usually takes me a good 2-3 hour from the moment I head to bed to actually sleep. *sigh* Sleeping pills are not an option, I'm afraid I might get addicted or become to dependent on them. Warm milk.. makes me sleepy but doesn't knock me out. The only thing that works is actually sleeping @ home. I guess that's part of the reason why I go home every weekend...